Episode 62: What Was Your Most Embarrassing Moment?
A photo of an embarrassed dog.
Intro
Jennifer Gunson 0:03
Welcome back to another episode of Medium Well with Psychic Sharyn Rose. Today we’re talking about embarrassing moments. Not those funny, awkward moments that everybody tells stories of for years after they happen. But embarrassing moments define your life, represent you, and make you who you are. So let’s listen to Sharyn today as she shares important stories from her life that were embarrassing, but let her down to the path of where she is today. Let’s get started.
Do embarrassing moments make you stronger?
Sharyn 0:37
Hi, and welcome back to Medium Well with Psychic Sharyn Rose. Episode 62, you guys! Wow! We’re moving right along here, and I love it! Today I want to talk to you about embarrassing moments. And I’m not referring to the funny, awkward moments as more the ones that tended to traumatize you, the ones that you might have had an awkward moment, but it stuck with you forever. And it created a personality adjustment or change. For example, I can remember a funny moment when you’re at a deli, and you think that the tray sitting out is free samples. So you try a couple of them, in your view, realize that, oops, that was a returning customer who had just had their deli meal. And they just put their empty plate with the leftovers on the counter. And oops, you decided to try it thinking it was free samples, not like that. I’m not talking about that kind of because that’s funny. I’m talking about when you’re traumatized and want to tell you a story. Because sometimes, we have embarrassing moments that stay with us forever, and they can adjust who we become. Before we go any further, I want to remind you I will pull an Oracle card at the end of this session. So hang in there.
Do embarrassing moments matter?
Okay, listen up. So I want to tell you a story about something that happened to me when I was 16. Now, 16-year-old girls are already quite sensitive about how their hair looks. They’re sensitive about the way their clothes look. They’re sensitive about how they present what they sound and look like. They’re susceptible. I mean, we’re 16-year-old girls, right? So the experience that I had was truly to be honestly the most embarrassing moment. And it was not just one moment; it was a combination of moments after the main event. So let me fill you in here. When I was 16 years old, I ran for rodeo Queen for our club in Northern BC in the summer. And I don’t know, 8 or 10 other cowgirls – young cowgirls – that rode Gymkhana and did various things with a rodeo that ran as well. And we were all competing against each other. And you know what? Some of these girls were terrific horsewomen. I mean, they were brilliant horsewomen. But it wasn’t just any horsemanship; that was what they judged you on. They actually judged you on your poise, ability to speak to the public, your horses, grooming, the care of the horses, tack – all that kind of stuff. And when I saw I was doing it for fun because I thought it would be a hoot. But I did it. It was enjoyable. And I competed. When they announced the winners. They said my name. First, they said the princesses and my name wasn’t there. So I thought, Oh, well, it was fun. Then they said my name was the Queen, rodeo queen. And I was stunned. Shocked. I couldn’t believe it. Good things were not… I wasn’t the kind of girl good things happen to – nothing’s like this! I didn’t come from a place where I believed in myself. I didn’t have great self-esteem. I just so, when they said my name, I wanted the other girls to. Sharyn! Sharyn, that’s you! And I was like, Holy crap. I won! What?? I won!? I’m Rodeo Queen!? And now I’m embarrassed because I was always shy too. And I’m like, Oh my God, but I’m thrilled because I’m like, oh my god, I won. And it was an exhilarating day. And that particular day was hilarious because we ran a few events after that, like on the rodeo grounds. I can remember a funny embarrassment from there I went. I ran the barrels with my fast horse. And we did set a short time that day. But on my way home from the last barrel running on my horse to the end line… I split my pants. And now that wasn’t very comfortable! Funny because you always got an extra pair of pants if you’re any cowgirl somewhere you got a pair of jeans, you know, you don’t know what will happen. And I had another pair, which was fine. So embarrassing. Maybe a little bit… not a big big deal. I mean, I was the Rodeo Queen. How can I be too embarrassed about that?
How do you get over embarrassing moments from the past?
Anyway, as the summer progresses, I’m working in the restaurant with my family – my family’s restaurant – and I’ve got a girlfriend who has just gotten herself a horse. And this horse… she couldn’t… it wasn’t a big horse. It was just kind of a pony. But it was a beautiful little horse, and she couldn’t get the horse to stop rearing. When she would ride, the horse would be rare and rear up on her front legs, and she was afraid she would fall off because she was still learning how to ride herself. So she asked me one day if I could help her with her horse. And I knew what to do because I had been riding horses for a few years, and we had mischievous horses too. And so I knew what to do. So we went out, and I helped her get her horse past and beyond this point of rearing. The horse never did rear again, and we kept our horses in a small paddock. And so the ones we were riding, we would bring in let loose in the paddock, and the others were already loose in the paddock that wasn’t, you know, running, they had a water trough there, they had grass, they had hay bales, and you know, whatnot. And so when I was taking my horse because I had my horse out the same day, I helped her with her horse, and we both went riding together. And when I came back, I had the tack off my horse, the saddle off and whatnot, and my horse used a Hackamore, and I didn’t take the Hackamore off my horse; I thought, you know what, I’m going to be a little lazy today. And I’m going to get my horse to ride me across the field to the water trough because I need to fill the water trough. And I stayed on my horse going across the paddock. And that was a big mistake, and I knew better. It was a mistake. When your horse is tired and wants to get you off its back. It’s a hot day. It wants to roll and eat, and the other horses are loose in the paddock; you’re looking for a little bit of trouble. And sure as heck, my horse started to buck to try to get rid of me. And I’ve been bucked off lots of horses. Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not the Queen rider here. But I was a rodeo Queen at this point. Remember that. And my horse, when he started to buck, surprised me, and I put my feet up on his neck, and I slid down his neck, and my foot got hung up in his Hackamore. There’s a bar under their chin the Hack has. And it’s, of course, that scared my horse. I hit the ground, and my leg is in the air, hooked up in his Hackamore. And my horse drove me across the field until the hack bar broke. And when the hack bar broke, I was unconscious and unaware of the world. At Bliss. My girlfriend had seen all this happen and was freaking out. She was having the worst time. She came running over to me, apparently now. That’s just as he is now. I’m telling you what happened that I don’t know about. And I was a bloody mess. My face, my head. Everything was a bloody mess when she ran. She ran to me. There were a couple of gentlemen that came by, and they came by, and they came and looked at me, and they picked me up and put me in their truck. And my dad, meanwhile, ran down to the paddock. And the next thing I knew, I don’t know what’s happening here. I don’t remember any, but I came in and out of places. And I remember going to the hospital. I remember being in the car and the backseat lying down and hearing my parents talk, which was coming in and out in the note. And the next thing I remember, I was in the operating room, and somebody was holding my hand. And I heard this voice say, Wow, you’ve got quite a grip. And I was like – and it was a male voice – and I was like, okay. And then I’m out of it again. Into it again, out of it again. Now, when I came to ultimately came to realize what had happened, I’d gotten bucked off my horse, and I’d gotten hurt. I was in the hospital; I had bandages on my face, which were all stitched up. I had split my face from my nose down to my chin. My horse had knocked out four of my teeth. And it was through, I believe, and it’s believed it was a kick. I got kicked in the side of my face. And my teeth were knocked out, and my face was split open. And I’m a 16-year-old girl. I look horrendous that one side of my face is completely swollen. You can’t even see that it’s a face. And this was in August. Now, it would take several weeks for this all to heal. And I remember now some people take advantage of others when they’re hurting. And you know these people, you’ve got them in your world. I had them in mine too. And we owned the restaurant when I was growing up, and it was a small-town restaurant. And I walked into the restaurant’s back door, and one of the cooks, who never liked me anyway, just liked me. She said, Oh my God, I didn’t recognize you. You just looked terrible. I thought you were some demon. And she was just being horrible. And I wanted to crawl under a rock and cry. And then, of course, the teasing starts. Hey, I thought you could ride a horse! Hey, I thought you were Rodeo Queen! Hey, I thought you were… so here I am, embarrassed. I am so, so embarrassed. Because I’m literally, I’m traumatized by the fact that I look like I do. It turned out that the young man holding my hand, the voice male voice in the hospital, was a handsome doctor. I’m a 16-year-old girl. I can’t even smile. I didn’t then know what I looked like. I hadn’t seen myself in the mirror. But I remember just his voice saying, and then he came into my room to check on me what at some point before I left the hospital and, and he said, It’s good to see you’re doing well, I’m glad, he said, you had quite a tumble. And I said thank you and yada, yada yada. But I still couldn’t talk very well. My mouth was fully swollen, and I was a mess. Anyway, I didn’t know I looked as bad as I did. When I did finally get to see myself in a mirror. I was mortified, absolutely mortified, because school was going to be starting in like a week. And I had to go back to school. I would be meeting up with all these people because I went to school in a different community, with those who had not known about my accident. I was going to show up there, and I’m a 16-year-old girl; you want your first day of school to be, you want to look a little sexy, and you want to be cute, and you want your hair to look good. And then I got a smashed-up face. I’m like, Oh, no. And I got the name Queenie. That year, everybody started calling me Queenie, some of my friends, I’ve got to give it some of my friends, rallied for me in a huge humongous way. But it was truly the most embarrassing moment of my life that prevented me going forward as a rodeo queen, a 16-year-old girl, not a bad-looking little thing. And then having to show up for my that year. And I believe it was grade 10 or grade 11. And I was a mess! My face looked terrible. And I mean, all these guys you think are so cute. And you’re not; you walk with your head down, down the hallway. And ah, it was just the worst. Then I remembered those four teeth that got knocked out; they couldn’t do anything about replacing them or anything like that until my gums healed, and my gums couldn’t heal until the bone fragments had been smashed inside my face. We’re coming through the bone fragments that came through for actually a couple of years after that accident. And I remember going for a burger with my girlfriend, and I had just gotten the teeth. I had just gotten these new teeth. And we decided to go for a burger in this town in the restaurant. And I couldn’t eat with these things in my mouth, that I was like, oh my god, this is like having this huge appliance in your face. I couldn’t. And I was so… I’m great. I wanted to eat my burger. So I took my teeth out, wrapped him in a napkin and said, I’m going to eat it without my teeth. And she started laughing. I was embarrassed, but I didn’t care. But it was traumatizing. And I became very, very fortunate that I had an amazing surgeon who stitched up my face, and I healed very, very well. Of course, there’s still always the issue of the teeth, right, and having to get those replaced. And always, you know, having that whole issue go on. So that was traumatizing as well because I probably went a little further into my shell. But in the end, I came out of my shell more because there were mean people. And I was finding that there were girlfriends and male friends who would stand up for me when somebody would tease me because I looked so terrible for that period. And they would stand up for me, and I realized I had some excellent friends, and I learned how to stand up for myself. And I learned how to take care of myself. But the trauma. And the embarrassment was amazing.
What are some common embarrassing moments?
This is nothing like when my husband and I decided to sit in the steam room. We have a steam room here at our home. And we chose to sit in the steam room and like to use essential oils and carrier oils to help our pores open up and detox, etc. And my husband grabbed oil from the cupboard because we didn’t have one in the steam room then. And I wasn’t down there yet. And as I went down, he was already in the steam room, and I got down there, and the closer I got to the steam room, the closer I got, the more I could smell the garlic, and I’m thinking, what the heck? And I opened the door, and this waft of garlic hit me. My husband was sitting there, wholly thrilled, absolutely covered in garlic oil. It was hilarious. It was so funny. Now that was probably more his most embarrassing moment. Maybe. Maybe it wouldn’t be if I wouldn’t tell everybody about it!
What can you learn from embarrassing moments?
But sometimes, embarrassing moments help teach you a lesson. Sometimes it helps show that you’re too sensitive, perhaps a little bit too… maybe you’re too keen, and you get embarrassed too quickly. Or it could create trauma for your kid come from a traumatizing experience. And we always have a choice through all of those things. We always have the option to be able to grow and to be able to make different choices, and to be able to have more fun. But that was my most embarrassing moment. And I’d love to hear what your most embarrassing moment was. I mean, you know, when you’re holding a position as something, and you’re presenting yourself as someone, you don’t want to come across as a fake or phony, and I came across (or fell) I came across I changed it later on I my thought pattern changed. But I initially felt like a phony queen, writer, cowgirl, and phony person because I got bucked off my horse. But you know what, a couple of weeks after that, another gal got hurt on her horse, similar situation. But she also got kicked on the side of the head, four inches from where I was, and she never recovered. Four inches from where I got kicked in the face, mouth cheek, she got kicked to the side of her head, it created brain damage, and she never recovered. So I was very fortunate when that happened; I realized how good I was. I also realized at that point that my life was worth living; no matter what I was going through, life was worth living and giving it everything I had.
Why do people share embarrassing stories?
So if you want to share your most embarrassing moment, please write me. Sharyn@SharynRose.com. In the meantime, check out the website, SharynRose.com, and see if there are any services you’d like to take advantage of. And don’t be afraid to listen to some of the other episodes on this podcast because you might enjoy some good episodes.
How do you recover from an embarrassing moment?
Here’s the card I picked. And I liked it from Daily Affirmations. And the card is, “I’m excited to share the things I no longer love or need with people who love or need them more.” And this lends itself to speaking about. Maybe you have clothes you no longer need or food that you feel you could share with people. We’re in a food-deprived sort of setting right now in the world. And people are, you know, trying to make their lives comfortable. And they’re trying to have enough to eat and be able to make the rents and their mortgages and keep their jobs and work hard. And so that’s a sound card for now. So let me reread it. I’m excited to share the things I no longer love or need with people who will love or need them more. Now, if you haven’t listened to Episode 61: Winning, you must have a ticket to win the lottery. So listen up to that. There’s a competition where you could win a reading, but you must listen to the episode to find out how. Okay, thank you for listening in. It’s been fun. I appreciate you. I appreciate you being here. And I appreciate you sharing my podcast. And we’ll – oh, by the way, we’re also on YouTube. Now go over there. Check it out. Subscribe, hit the notification bell and get yourself over there on YouTube. Okay, thanks, everybody. We’ll see you next time. Bye-bye for now.
Outro
Jennifer Gunson 17:28
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